In Denial

As a compulsive overeater, when I would binge, I never let myself think about what I was doing to myself and my body.  I knew what I was doing, and the only thing I let myself think about was the pleasure I would get from doing it.  Never mind that it was only a short-lived pleasure, ignoring the guilt and self-hatred I would feel afterwards.  I was in denial about why I was doing it which started in my childhood and worsened as I got older.  I didn't let myself think about what I was avoiding: the loneliness, boredom, lack of self-love, the lack of satisfaction with my actions and my life.  It just hit me that when I'm "hungry", the first thing I should ask myself is "Is there anything I'm trying to avoid or take my mind off of?  Remind myself that food doesn't solve anything, it will only give me more problems.  Maybe instead, I need a nap or some other kind of break like doing some 4-7-8 diaphragmatic breathing and/or meditation, reading, making a call. It's better than multiplying my problems by overeating!

What are you in denial about? Please comment.